The reason I started was all because of a boy.  And suddenly I realize
it sounds like I’m talking about a drug addiction.  His name was Ryan
Hayward and I was madly in love with him.  Once I made a fake AIM screen
name and pretended I was my cousin just to see if I could find out more
about him and if he liked me.  One thing I learned is that he was a
Britney Spears Fan (Gag! Although this was before she went bat shit
crazy.)  I also learned he was a moron because the pictures I had been
using for my “cousin” were actually of Britney Spears at a younger age.
I don’t think he caught that.  I also learned he was a jerk.  He spent a
lot of time talking to my “cousin” yet rarely gave me the time of day.

Officially I’ve been convinced he is gay, but that’s beside the point.

The things I miss today are the Anime layouts and high school drama
blogs.  Or rather I miss being able to write about high school drama.
Honestly I can’t stand reading any of it any more.  I like mommy blogs.
Maybe because I am a mother and I can relate.  I don’t know.  I have
also begun to spend ridiculous amounts of time reading the news.  Hello
CNN, I like the new look.  This must be a sign that I am aging rapidly.

What does all of this mean?  First, if you’ve made it this far congrats
on staying awake (and not going to another website) Second, it means a
complete overhaul.   Work in progress…

Now if only I can shut off World of Warcraft long enough to get started.
(I play a level 80 mage named Cyretemis (Sigh-yer-temissss) on Arathor.
DPS LFG NE H!)

Ah, kidding of course.  I’m learning how to become a supervisor, which isnt as easy as it seams.  I’ve had my fair share of total garbage-like supervisors, and in order to not turn into one myself, I am actively putting myself through hell.

Theres so much more to it than you can see.  Its more stressful than you can ever imagine.

But thats life.  2.5 more weeks of schooling and I’ll be fully trained to be a supervisor.

if it werent for the craptacular economy I would be outprocessing and preparing myself for life as a civilian.  Instead, I am trudging anoth 6 years down this road.

I must admit that the military isnt what I see myself doing for the next six years.  However, I have a responcibility to my children to provide the best possible life for them.   That means I must hold my breath and endure another aching journey through military life.

I suppose that I could make the best out of it.  I mean I do have it much better than a lot of peoeple I know.  But its rough.  It has scarred me emotionally to the point where I can no longer express my true feelings.  I must bite my tounge and swallow my emotions.

I no longer take pride in my work.  I used to.  I used to glow with every accomplishement.  Now those accomplishments are meaningless.  If you work hard your entire life and never receive any thanks or appreciation, then isn’t it all a waste?  I would have recieved the same amount of gratification by doing the bare minimum.

This second term for me will prove exactly how I feel, that trying hard doesn’t matter because no one really cares.  I wont push myself or get stressed out.  I’ll go to work and do my job.  At the end of the day I’ll go home and love my family.

“Mom let me tell you a secret.”  So I leaned in and she whispered in my ear.

“Mom, you better listen to me when I tell you to get the drums.  Its for us to share”

I cant remember the last time I blogged.  Its been a while, but I’ve recently had the urge to do it again.  So whats been going on in my life since we last spoke…  a lot.  I wont go into detail because, well just because theres too much.

• First My dad and sister moved down here.  That was in February?  I dont know.  Its nice having family close by.  I definetly missed it.
• I became president of my squadrons booster club.  Pretty much I am in charge of all of the fundraisers we do. Honestly I have no idea what I’m doing.
• Crystal is potty trained.  Mostly.  She still has accidents when she is too lazy to walk her happy butt to the toilet.   She is also still a very stubborn child.
• Birthdays are coming up.  Chelsea will be 4!  Can you beleive it?  I’ll be 24 and the stubborn one will be 3.
• I’ve been sucked into playing WOW.  My mage is 69.  I play on Arathor, her name is Cyretemis.  Look me up if you play.
• I twitter.  I never thought I would be a twitterer but I am. 

Thats my life in a nut shell.  Now as for this site…  Yeah, I need a non default theme.  Lets see if I can figure out wordpress again.  Its changed a lot since the last time I used it.

P.S The space bar on my laptop is finicky so if my words ever run together, you’ll know why.